Latest Status - GOD BLESS. BOBIBOBI

又回来了。

朋友们啊、读者们啊，我想说，我还活着，正在拼命地赶着功课。哈哈。

死期就在星期三，而我现在依然在拼命中，希望可以赶快完成，让自己休息一会儿，哪怕只是一分钟也好。希望星期三当日，一切顺顺利利，毕竟是和同组的同学一起做的，他们每个都花了不少心思，不希望这一切徒劳无功，白费心思。

加油吧！:)

ONG ONG lai, SHUN SHUN ki ~~~~~~~

HATE MYSELF.

 

我错失了一个机会，一个千载难逢的机会。

虽然机会是有限，不过每个人都有权利、资格去争取这个机会。而在我心里面其实已经有个算盘，已算好了我究竟是不是那个有资格的人了。结果不出我所料，我是属于那个没资格的人。不是因为我有什么病症、还是性别不符子类的原因，简单来说就是...... 我总觉得自己是个没有实力的人。我不希望由我这样的一个人去夺取了别人的机会。

这整个月都是我的低落期，我已经低落、失望了两个星期多了，谁知道？

我没有了以前的推动力，没有了以前的毅力，现在的我已经没有了方向，我不知道应该为谁努力、为谁前进了。我曾经说过，一个人的未来就像一张白纸，而你可以选择很多种颜色来涂上那张白纸。你想要个五颜六色、多姿多彩的未来，或者是一个淡然无色的未来呢？这一切的决定就在于你打算使用水彩盘上的哪一个颜色。但现在我却发现，原来代表着我未来的那张纸早已经是黑色了，我究竟要如何填上其他颜色呢？

我曾经说过，我读室内设计这一科的原因就只是因为单纯地想要设计出一间房子然后再把房子给买下，送给爸爸妈妈。（就连我也觉得这样的梦想很单纯很天真。）我完全没有料到这一科的难度性，就傻傻地坚持着。当我一开始接触的时候，我虽然吓到了，但我依然坚持下去，因为我之前我有一个目标，一个虽然天真却让我一直坚持下去的目标。

但最近因为发生了一些事，我现在感到非常迷惘，一直在 Semester one 的阶段徘徊。我一直给自己一个限期，强迫自己赶快恢复起来，可是就是不能。我现在没有那个心情做任何的功课，只知道每天笑笑笑。因为现在的我，真的除了笑，就再也想不到要做什么了。没有想哭的冲动，没有想发脾气的原因，也没有想要笑的开心事，但就只知道一味地笑......

Tonari No Kaibutsun-kun# 06

“Love is good. It changes people for better or worse. You could look at it as a chance for you to change. The best kind of love helps you grow up.”

People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. 

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. 

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master...

Latest Status. Final Exam Result.

Hi, readers. 

Today our result have been published in the bulletin board, and I really not in the mood now. But it doesn't means I didn't get pass in my final exam. My CGPA is 3.19, so I think the grade that I got for my final exam is B. I really felt very moody at that moment when I have already know my result, but I didn't show it out in front of my friends. Yay, I can got B in my first semester final exam was already very good, but the reason why I still unhappy is because.... in this examination, I really really really didn't try my best. I have no idea about my parent's feeling when they know my result. 

I didn't expect that I can get A, but.... I really don't know what to say... *Sigh*

From the begining, I always thought that why I will felt very moody after I know my result? Perhaps I'm too demanding, perhaps I give myself too much pressure, or maybe I feel self-abased? But now, I know it - I do not want to see the faces of the parents have any hint of disappointment. I think there are a lot of students, teenagers know how that feels. Haiz. 

Now, I really don't dare to tell them my final exam result.  

In fact, this was not my first and my only one blog. Hehe

部落格的好处就是能让自己有属于自己发泄的地方、而且也是让人能够分享生活中的一点一滴，也算是让热爱上网的网民们有本日记在网络上，只不过这本日记要被隐藏还是公开，就由你自己来决定了。

其实，我不只是只有这一个部落格，有两个、三个、或者四个，我自己也忘记了 哈哈。我单单在中二的时候就已经有了两个部落格了吧...... 之所以会有那么多，是因为我脑袋不好使，总是忘记密码，所以干脆就开个新的。直到我开了第三个部落格，是我维持最久一次，我还记得那部落格里记载着我满满的中学回忆。但因为不知道什么原因，整个部落格就消失了...... 那时候的心情真的很很很很很失落啊。

那时候中三，是我热爱写文章的时期。无论是亲情友情爱情还是社会国家等等的事，我都能写很多很多，当然写得最多的就是自己的心情和生活篇。那时候每当我和自己最要好的朋友闹翻了，我就会在部落格里写下自己的心情。不是因为我博可怜，只是在现实中真的没有一个人可以让我诉诉苦。

很奇怪啊。电脑和部落格明明就是死的，但知道我秘密最多的却也是它们，甚至比我家人还要了解我。

那个部落格维持了一年多，突然消失后，我应该是在几个星期后就重新开了一个新的，也就是现在这一个。因为不希望自己总是有 ‘以前的回忆没了’ 这种想法，所以每当我开了一个部落格，我心里就会说：新的部落格，新的开始，新的生活，新的回忆。可是为什么我总觉得，这新的部落格里面装满的悲伤比上一个的还要多呢？

I'm so sorry.

I was very worried about my exam result now. *Sigh*

Today my lecturer gave back the assignments of semester one to us, but if you get back your assignments, which means your work wasn't the best and the best. Well, I am the one of the example of this. The assignments I took back today, I only got B or B+, I know that I didn't did it very well in my semester one. Except of those assignments, the other thing I didn't did well was my final exam. Really really really feel disappointed to myself, and if my parents know my result, I guess I will let them down. 

During final exam, I only focus on my history subject. Other subjects, I didn't study so much, and now I felt regret. Even though now we haven't get our result, but my lecturer have already told us that the highest mark of the subject of FD114, it's only 65 marks something. And I don't think that I will get more than 50 marks, I was already prepared for the worst. I felt so sorry, to my lecturers and also my parents.

I'm not going to blame anyone because I know that it was my fault. I should always pay attention during class and I should prepare very well before the exam coming. But.... *Sigh. I don't know what to say in this moment, there are no words that can express my feeling. I let myself down, I let all the people who care about me disappointed. 

Ahhhhhhh—— I feel want to eat desserts in this moment, so that I can retrieve my mood :(

I-city Trip with College mates. #Klangtrip

Well, I have promised my friend that I will write something about our Klang trip. Actually I'm quite lazy now, haha. Because I didn't bring my own camera to take some photo on that day, so I feel like something missing, don't have the force to write this post. But, Yesterday my friend had remind me, and now I'm going to realize my promise and share about my I-City trip to you guys! 

I believe that if you're a Malaysian, you definitely will heard I-City where located at Shah Alam. Before I went there, I heard my friends said that whenever the evening, there will be a very beautiful place because of the all colorful lighting. Therefore, I wanna experience it! Muahahaha.

Okay, according to our plan, we decided to go the Trick Art Museum only, because it looks fun and not very expensive, it's only RM10 for the entrance fees!

The first picture I saw when I step in the Trick Art Museum. The Rococo Art —— The Swing. Perhaps in the first semester, my final group assignment is about Rococo style and I have searched some art pictures, so I remembered this art Hahaha.

     

Weird Mirror @@

Kissing Piranha! Hahahahaha

When I saw this, I quickly asked my friend help me to took this photo! Hahaha! As a running man's fans, you should know who is this guy. :P 

 

The Angels

   

I love these 2 photos so much! Hahahaha Especially the left hand side one! 

   

   

   

   

After Trick Art Museum, we decided to get into the haunted house! Because the price is more cheaper than usual, don't know got what kind of promotion, buy one free one, therefore.... Wahahaha! In addition of my high school haunted house, this was my first time get into the haunted house. Before we get in, I really feel excited and also a little bit scary Haha

This really look like the Conjuring! When we stepped into this part, I really not dare to walk near the cabinet! Hahaha But inside actually only have a fake human. 

The second part I felt affraid too. Because of the lighting and the sound effect =3=

Even though it wasn't Soooooo scary, but it was a good experience, so next time I can try the haunted house of Genting Highland or Sunway Lagoon with my high school friends. Hehehe

After the haunted house, we just walked around and took photo and then played some outdoor games.

I love Dinosaur! 

Okay, I-City trip's post end with three grey girls Hahaha. 

A very short post but a lot of funny photos, so I hope you guys can enjoy it, especially my friend that reminded me one. Hehe. Well, it's time to stop writing, Good night readers. :)