I'm lost.

Ohayo, I'm back.......AGAIN! Haha, I really like to blogging. In addition to sharing everything in my life, it also a place to let me vent and tell about my feeling.When I talked about this, I think my friend will know what I'm going to write on the next paragraph. Haha, I'm totally in a bad mood now. Not because of anyone, is just my own problem, a problem that I can't solve forever. *Sigh

It is 4th of January, after few days, I have to go back to college, and take my Semester 2 final exam result. I don't want to face it, I felt afraid. What if I really can't pass my exam and go to Semester 3 successfully? I felt very stressful now, even though I tried to force myself relax, keep watching my favorite anime or Korea variety shows, but it is useless. My mind keep thinking about it, and my heart was keep worrying about this. 

I told my best friend about my dream, and I said I want to achieve it. I told my family that how much I loved this course, how much I enjoy it. But if I can't pass, and I have to stay in Semester 2, then what I have told them is just BULLSHIT. So what can I do? The only thing that I can do now.... is..... wait. I don't know how is my future, I feeling lost now, I can't find my direction. Yay, I know this is just a section in my life, a section to test me whether I can uphold it or not. I will not GIVEUP.

Maybe I will fall, but I will definitely rely on my own willpower to stand up. Perhaps I will fail, but I will definitely keep going on, never stop and never give up. But the only thing I feel sorry to my parents is, I have to waste their money, I have let them feel disappointed on me... And that's why I also feel very useless of myself. :(