Latest Status - GOD BLESS. BOBIBOBI

又回来了。

朋友们啊、读者们啊，我想说，我还活着，正在拼命地赶着功课。哈哈。

死期就在星期三，而我现在依然在拼命中，希望可以赶快完成，让自己休息一会儿，哪怕只是一分钟也好。希望星期三当日，一切顺顺利利，毕竟是和同组的同学一起做的，他们每个都花了不少心思，不希望这一切徒劳无功，白费心思。

加油吧！:)

ONG ONG lai, SHUN SHUN ki ~~~~~~~

HATE MYSELF.

 

我错失了一个机会，一个千载难逢的机会。

虽然机会是有限，不过每个人都有权利、资格去争取这个机会。而在我心里面其实已经有个算盘，已算好了我究竟是不是那个有资格的人了。结果不出我所料，我是属于那个没资格的人。不是因为我有什么病症、还是性别不符子类的原因，简单来说就是...... 我总觉得自己是个没有实力的人。我不希望由我这样的一个人去夺取了别人的机会。

这整个月都是我的低落期，我已经低落、失望了两个星期多了，谁知道？

我没有了以前的推动力，没有了以前的毅力，现在的我已经没有了方向，我不知道应该为谁努力、为谁前进了。我曾经说过，一个人的未来就像一张白纸，而你可以选择很多种颜色来涂上那张白纸。你想要个五颜六色、多姿多彩的未来，或者是一个淡然无色的未来呢？这一切的决定就在于你打算使用水彩盘上的哪一个颜色。但现在我却发现，原来代表着我未来的那张纸早已经是黑色了，我究竟要如何填上其他颜色呢？

我曾经说过，我读室内设计这一科的原因就只是因为单纯地想要设计出一间房子然后再把房子给买下，送给爸爸妈妈。（就连我也觉得这样的梦想很单纯很天真。）我完全没有料到这一科的难度性，就傻傻地坚持着。当我一开始接触的时候，我虽然吓到了，但我依然坚持下去，因为我之前我有一个目标，一个虽然天真却让我一直坚持下去的目标。

但最近因为发生了一些事，我现在感到非常迷惘，一直在 Semester one 的阶段徘徊。我一直给自己一个限期，强迫自己赶快恢复起来，可是就是不能。我现在没有那个心情做任何的功课，只知道每天笑笑笑。因为现在的我，真的除了笑，就再也想不到要做什么了。没有想哭的冲动，没有想发脾气的原因，也没有想要笑的开心事，但就只知道一味地笑......

Tonari No Kaibutsun-kun# 06

“Love is good. It changes people for better or worse. You could look at it as a chance for you to change. The best kind of love helps you grow up.”

People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. 

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. 

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master...

Latest Status. Final Exam Result.

Hi, readers. 

Today our result have been published in the bulletin board, and I really not in the mood now. But it doesn't means I didn't get pass in my final exam. My CGPA is 3.19, so I think the grade that I got for my final exam is B. I really felt very moody at that moment when I have already know my result, but I didn't show it out in front of my friends. Yay, I can got B in my first semester final exam was already very good, but the reason why I still unhappy is because.... in this examination, I really really really didn't try my best. I have no idea about my parent's feeling when they know my result. 

I didn't expect that I can get A, but.... I really don't know what to say... *Sigh*

From the begining, I always thought that why I will felt very moody after I know my result? Perhaps I'm too demanding, perhaps I give myself too much pressure, or maybe I feel self-abased? But now, I know it - I do not want to see the faces of the parents have any hint of disappointment. I think there are a lot of students, teenagers know how that feels. Haiz. 

Now, I really don't dare to tell them my final exam result.